This is my 500th post on this blog.
I wasn’t quite sure how to celebrate. Do I do a retrospective, or something funny, or something big and bold? (Well, I did do something bold – I changed my template. You like?)
Then I just decided to post another questionnaire. Sorry. Couldn’t resist.
So nothing deep or big or bombast. Just another questionnaire. Which you are probably sick of, but like I said, I couldn’t resist.
This is really a get-to-know-you type of questionnaire, which covers a pretty broad range of topics, I think. There’s a little of everything in this one. It’s kind of long, and I kind of talked a lot with it, so just bear with me on it. All will turn out all right in the end.
To everyone – my family, my friends, my followers, and the casual reader – I thank you for stopping by, and for reading, and listening to me. It really does mean a lot to me.
On with the questionnaire.
1. What is your full name? Do you have a nickname?
~ My full name is Mousenomia Tadpole. My nickname is Mouse. (For purposes of this blog, that is my real name, now and forever more.)
2. How old are you? When is your birthday?
~ My birthday is in January – the 5th, to be exact. I’m older than you might think, though I will always be a child at heart, if that makes sense.
3. Where were you born? Where do you live now? Are you patriotic?
~ I was born in Illinois, and currently live in Iowa. Yes, I consider myself patriotic.
4. Who are/were your parents? (Names, occupations, personalities, etc.)
~ Mom is Mom and Dad is Dad. Mom works at a local bank, and Dad works in insurance. Dad is also a prominent Internet DJ known as DJ MoZo. My personality is a perfect amalgam of my parents’ personalities. I’ll keep you guessing as to which parts belong to whom. And I love both my parents dearly.
5. Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like?
~ My siblings are Older Sister, Younger Brother, and Youngest Brother. Older Sister is pragmatic, Younger Brother has always been strange, and Youngest Brother is like me but in male form. We’re funny all together. I love my siblings to death.
6. What is your occupation?
~ I am currently a records specialist at a local insurance company. I am also a writer, and it does help to declare myself as such.
7. How tall are you? How much do you weigh?
~ I am five feet, four-and-a-half inches tall. I am at a healthy weight for my height and my proportions. Trust me – if I drop below a certain weight level, I get sick. So I’m at a healthy weight.
8. What color is your hair? What color are your eyes?
~ Brown. Brown. And I wear glasses; I will never, ever wear contact lenses.
9. What is your race?
~ While it doesn’t really matter, I am Caucasian/white.
10. To which social class do you belong?
~ Well, I’m here, aren’t I? I wouldn’t know. I’m not really a social being, and don’t take much stock in social classes, as it were. I do understand the question, and I honestly don’t know the answer to that.
11. Do you consider yourself to be attractive? Do others?
~ It depends, I guess. Some days, I feel pretty (that sounds like a song cue, doesn’t it?), and some days I just want to crawl back under the rock. My boyfriend tells me I’m pretty and cute and beautiful, so maybe I am in a way.
12. What is your style of dress?
~ One word – COMFORTABLE. The more comfortable, the better. Although now that I’ve been bit by the workout bug, figure-fitting comes in handy, what with running and all.
13. Do you have any scars? Tattoos? Birthmarks? Other unique physical features?
~ I have a scar on my right wrist from when I “accidentally” put my hand through a window. I don’t have any tattoos, but I’ve often thought about getting one. I don’t have any birthmarks to speak of. As to other unique physical features, on my right ear, I have an extra little tab of skin. It’s hard to describe. In third grade, a teacher told me my parents should consider having it removed….which horrified my parents to hear when I told them that. So.
14. Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?
~ I do have an allergy to bee stings, but I wouldn’t know if that’s an allergy that gets worse over time, as I don’t intend to ever get stung again. I think I am slowly developing typical seasonal allergies. I have depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety issues, social phobia, and mild Asperger’s syndrome. Other than that, nothing.
15. Are you right- or left-handed?
~ Left-handed, baby!
16. What does your voice sound like?
~ Whiny and irritating, probably. I don’t really know. I’ve never thought about it before. No one ever sounds like they think they should sound, and I’m no different.
17. What kind of vocabulary do you use?
~ Hopefully, I don’t speak over anyone’s head, or appear to be talking down to anyone. I just use whatever words pop into my head. I’ve been told I have an extensive vocabulary, but if I’m not sure about a word, I still use a dictionary. The way I physically talk isn’t much different from what you read, either. If that makes sense.
18. List three quirks or other defining characteristics.
~ Well. I’m moody, that’s one; par for the course, I guess. If I’m nervous or anxious, I twist my fingers; if I’m wearing a ring, I’ll fiddle with the ring. That’s about all I can think of right now.
19. How often do you bathe? Do you wear perfume(s)?
~ I bathe/shower every other day. I cannot tolerate bathing or showering every day – my skin and hair just won’t stand for it. I can only wear Beauticontrol perfume, as that doesn’t irritate my skin.
20. What kind of facial expression do you commonly wear (dour glare, wry smile, etc.)?
~ I try to keep my face impassive yet wondering most times, but it depends on my mood, I guess.
21. Do you use body language? How?
~ I know I use my hands a lot when I talk sometimes.
22. Do you have a commonly used saying?
~ Several. “Whatever.” “Bizarre.” “Cool beans.” “No fear.”
23. What is your earliest memory?
~ I have so many memories vying for the title of ‘earliest,’ it’s hard to say which one is actually the earliest. One of my favorites is me running over the neighbor kid’s banana spider with my tricycle because the spider ate my ladybugs. Ah, I can remember that like it was yesterday. I’ll try to post more memories at a later date. Maybe.
24. How much schooling have you had? Did you enjoy it?
~ I went through all of elementary school, junior high, and high school, graduated high school, and went on to some college. Did I enjoy it? Not entirely. But it did have its moments.
25. Where did you learn most of your knowledge and skill?
~ From school, from observing other people, and from trusting my instincts.
26. How would you describe your childhood in general?
~ We were a normal, happy, healthy, dysfunctional family, as are most families. My childhood was no more different than most kids’ childhood.
27. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
~ A writer, always, and no joke. Or else an actress or a singer. Or a meteorologist.
28. When and with whom was your first kiss?
~ With Johnny. It was after we had hotpot for the first time, which I think was back in January. He dropped me off at home, and asked first, which was sweet of him.
29. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?
~ First of all, does it bother anyone else that this question is in the ‘Childhood’ section of this questionnaire?!? Second of all……..
30. Do you have a notorious or celebrated ancestor? Does that affect you?
~ Not that I know of, unless you count the great-relation that changed the spelling of our family’s last name to look more poetic. Ah, a relative after my own heart. Other than that, no.
31. What do you consider the most important moment of your life so far?
~ Thursday, January 15th, many years ago.
32. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
~ Gee, that hasn’t really happened yet. I suppose I’m most proud of putting The Book together, but my greatest achievement has yet to be had, I think.
33. What is your greatest regret?
~ There are two things that I “regret”: one is not having a closer relationship with Gina in the past, and the other is not holding someone’s hand when I had the chance. But to coin a phrase: “Don’t regret anything because, at one point, it was exactly what you wanted.” I suppose that’s true, to a certain extent, at least for me.
34. What is the most embarrassing or shameful thing ever to happen to you?
~ On two separate occasions, a person or people read my writing and/or personal journal without my consent. So embarrassing.
35. Do you have any secrets? If so, what are they?
~ No. Besides, if I told you, they wouldn’t be secrets anymore. To quote Spongebob Squarepants: “It’s no secret that the best thing about a secret is secretly telling someone your secret, therefore adding another secret to their secret collection of secrets, secretly.” But there’s nothing I haven’t already told you, or nothing you couldn’t figure out. Let me put it this way – I have no deep, dark secret that would destroy me if ever it saw the light of day.
36. What is the most evil thing you have ever done?
~ Hmm. That would have been back when I was five-ish, and I sneaked into a neighbor’s house while they were out. There’s more to that story – maybe I’ll tell it later. Other than that, I’m a nice girl.
37. When was the time you were most frightened?
~ The most frightened? I don’t think that’s really happened yet, either.
38. Have you ever traveled outside of your country? If so, to where?
~ That was in ninth grade band. The high school band I was part of at the time was one of twelve bands from the US invited to play at the “Stars Over Maastricht” festival in the Netherlands, and we were one of only three bands who raised the funds to attend. We got to visit Maastrict, Kerkrade, and Amsterdam in the Netherlands, Brussels and Brugge in Belgium, Cologne and Aachen in Germany, and Paris, France. I posted some pictures a while back. But the whole thing is another story for another time.
39. What is your alignment?
~ Capricorn. Well, I guess I’m the goat.
40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?
~ For a pessimist, I’m eternally optimistic. Try to figure that one out.
41. Do you believe in a god? If so, which one and why?
~ I was born and raised Catholic, but that really has no bearing anymore. I believe. That should be enough for you.
42. Do you believe in an afterlife?
~ There had better be. I would hope to see Father Mike there, happier than he’s ever been.
43. What is your greatest fear?
~ Aside from losing someone I love, it would be bees. Sorry. Nothing deeper than that. I’ve told people, the day killer bees invade the city I live in is the day I stop going outside.
44. What makes you angry? Sad? Happy? Why?
~ What makes me angry – intolerance, because I believe people are better than the sum of their fears, and can rise above hate. What makes me happy – my family, immediate and relatives, and my pets, because they love me unconditionally; and my boyfriend, because of everything. What makes me sad – well, sadness is par for the course, what with my depression, and try as I might, anything could make me sad at a moment’s notice, even happy things.
45. Do you think people are basically good or basically evil?
~ I am of the belief that all people are good unless they prove otherwise. Which might make me too trusting and/or gullible, but I’m really not.
46. What are your views on politics?
~ I am not affiliated. Just don’t get me started. I belong to the MMI party – Me, Myself, and I.
47. What are your views on gambling, lying, theft, killing?
~ Gambling = pointless; why waste all that money and time? Lying = it isn’t worth it because it will always come back to haunt you in the end. Theft = the first thing you learned back in kindergarten was to respect other peoples’ property, weren’t you listening? Killing = that’s one thing I’ll never understand, why the good Lord allowed murder to ever occur. I’m not entirely an ‘eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth’ kind of person, and so am not entirely for the death penalty. However, if a child is murdered, the killer should be put to death, no questions, no pleas allowed.
48. How far would you go to defend your beliefs?
~ I would die for them. I mean, I hope it would never come to that, but I would.
49. How much do you value money?
~ It’s an evil necessity. Money breeds hardship sometimes, in my opinion, but we need money to survive.
50. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do?
~ Kill someone/something. I don’t care if the victim is a person or an animal. It’s like ‘How can you live with yourself knowing you took a life?’
51. Do you believe in self-sacrifice for the greater good?
~ Yes. Because it’s happened to me before.
52. Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love?
~ Believe it or not, yes.
53. Are you superstitious?
~ Ehh. A little. I avoid going under ladders. I try not to break mirrors. I don’t like stepping on cracks or walking on grey tiles. On occasion, I cross my fingers and hold my breath while passing a cemetery.
54. How much do you respect the beliefs and opinions of others?
~ Much more than mine most of the time. So much so that, if I disagree with someone, I apologize all over the place.
55. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings?
~ I am nothing if not honest. I found out what a horrible liar I was back in third grade and ever since then, I just don’t lie. What is sometimes difficult for me is finding the words with which to verbally express my thoughts and feelings.
56. Do you have any biases or prejudices?
~ I’m sure I do. I like to think I don’t, but I’m sure I do. I just don’t give them much thought, so I couldn’t be so specific. It’s not that I haven’t thought about them – I don’t like to think about them, so. And that’s the honest truth.
DEALING WITH OTHERS:
57. Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
~ I have six most important people – my mom, my dad, my three siblings and my boyfriend. They make me happy and they keep me sane.
58. Who is the person you respect the most? Despise the most? Why?
~ I respect everyone, because everyone has their share of adversities, and can come through every time. As for anyone I despise, well, I’m past that situation, so I have nothing more to say about it.
59. Do you have a significant other? Who? Why?
~ Yes, Johnny. Why do you ask ‘why’?
60. Do you have a lot of friends? Who is your best friend?
~ I haven’t had a friend since, well, since freshman year of high school. Johnny is my best friend now, but some of my best friends ever were Serena and Cora from Wisconsin, and Brooke from Illinois (Brooke and I were Daria and Jane before Daria and Jane even existed!).
61. How do you relate to members of the same race? Class? Sex?
~ Just fine, on all three counts. Although sometimes women can be quite catty….
62. How do you relate to members of the opposite race? Class? Sex?
~ I have found that people of a different race or a lower class than myself are stronger than I am, considering the challenges and/or prejudices they face, and I have nothing but respect for them. Most upper-class people I’ve ever met are, sorry to say, snooty and act holier-than-thou, which royally ticks me off. As for relating to men, well, I like men, but there are times I don’t like men. I used to work for men, and sometimes it was difficult to admire them.
63. Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
~ Perhaps. Maybe it’s happening right now. Don’t quite know yet.
64. What do you look for in a potential lover?
~ Well, a particular Sheryl Crow song comes to mind; sing it if you know it. My laundry list isn’t big or taxing: I would like a man who could make me laugh, who likes all kinds of music, who is good with a big extended family (because I’ve got one!), who likes cats, and who could deal with my ever-changing moods and not stop loving me because of those moods. That’s all.
65. How close are you to your family?
~ Likethis. It wasn’t always so, but now that we’ve all grown, I think we’re emotionally closer than ever, even though there is physical distance between Dad and me and my siblings.
66. Do you want a marriage, family, and/or children?
~ I have my reservations about marriage. I don’t know if I could ever be married; it depends on the person. Plus, I don’t want to make the same missteps as my parents (notice I said ‘missteps,’ not ‘mistakes’). I would like a family and children.
67. Do you tend to argue with people or avoid conflict?
~ Depends on the person, really. If it’s family, I’ll argue. If it’s a complete stranger, I’ll usually defer to their opinion.
68. Are you a listener or a talker?
~ A listener.
69. How long does it usually take for you to trust others?
~ Despite my saying I’m too trusting, it takes a good long while.
70. Do you hold grudges?
~ No. Forgive and forget, as the saying goes. I was once Facebook friends with a girl who used to bully me; we talked back and forth a bit via Facebook, but we’ve since lost touch, and have basically unfriended each other.
71. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
~ No. I am most definitely a follower.
72. Do you like interacting with large groups of people?
~ Not really, but it usually can’t be avoided, so I do it anyway.
73. How well do you express yourself?
~ Other than writing, I can’t express myself well at all. I have a difficult time expressing myself.
74. How quickly do you judge others?
~ Not quickly. However, when it comes down to it, I like to think I’m a good judge of character.
75. Do you care about what others think of you?
~ I used to, back when I was younger than twenty. I’ve since come to realize that I am who I am. Here’s the ubiquitous Kate Winslet quote again: “This is me, like it or lump it.”
76. Do you have any enemies? How or why are they your enemy?
~ No. At least, I hope I don’t have any enemies. Like I said, I’m a nice girl.
PERSONAL TASTE AND OPINIONS:
77. What is your favorite pastime? Color? Food? Possession?
~ Favorite pastime – hanging out in my room, writing and listening to music. Favorite color – blue; as Regina Spektor sings, it’s “the most human color.” Favorite food – I don’t have one, because I have a love/hate relationship with food. Favorite possession – I don’t really have one.
78. What are your preferences in arts and/or entertainment?
~ I love art, especially painting and photography. I’ve gotten into Canaletto (a painter), I’ve always had an interest in Salvador Dali, and I love love love the Victorian photography of Julia Margaret Cameron. In terms of entertainment – movies and music – my tastes are eclectic on both counts. In terms of a night out, as in a date, dinner and a movie would be just fine by me.
79. Do you smoke, drink, go whoring, or use drugs? Why or why not?
~ No, no, no, and no! First of all, I’d never ever go whoring! And I did mention once why I would never ever smoke, drink, or use drugs. I couldn’t even if I wanted to, because I’m now on medications that would make it impossible to start. So there.
80. How do you spend a typical Saturday night?
~ I’m usually in bed by 9:00 each and every night. On Saturday nights now, usually I’ll practice guitar and voice, maybe watch a movie or listen to some music, check the blog, then go to bed. Unless I’m out with Johnny. Then it could be later than 9:00, so.
81. What is your most cherished fantasy?
~ Hmm….I think I’d prefer to keep this to myself. It’s not a lie, and it isn’t a deep secret. It’s merely an omission.
82. How long is your attention span?
~ I’m sorry, were you saying something?
83. Do you laugh a lot? What do you find funny?
~ I don’t laugh as often as I should, but with the right people (like with certain relatives) or if my siblings and I are in the right mood, the laughs keep coming. What I find funny is dry, sarcastic, cynical, yet simple humor, like on “Daria.” “Red vs. Blue” is a good indication of my sense of humor as well.
84. Is there anything that shocks or offends you? If so, what?
~ I’ve seen a lot, so I’ve mellowed, so it would depend on the situation that is presented. Animal cruelty never fails to shock and offend me. And I’d never ever look at pornography, for the simple fact that I know it doesn’t necessarily represent reality. You know?
85. How do you deal with stress?
~ Listening to angry music. Taking a walk. Sleeping. Even cleaning.
86. How much athletic ability do you have? Artistic?
~ I was never very athletic, even though I climbed trees and biked everywhere and played soccer and t-ball when I was a kid, and I really wanted to do gymnastics but I was told I was too old to start. Artistic-wise, I love to write, and I’m learning guitar and voice, and I love taking pictures, and about all I can draw well is mice. That’s about it.
87. Do you like animals? Do you like children?
~ I love all animals, always have, always will. I didn’t used to like children, but I do now, and hope to have some of my own one day.
88. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?
~ I will say I am deeply ingrained in routine, but a little spontaneity never hurt anybody.
89. Do you have a pet? If so, what is his/her name? Species? Fur color? Etc….
~ I have Nuala, who is a grey shorthaired cat and she’s a little prima donna; someone once said she’s a mix of Russian Blue and some other kind of cat. We have two kittens – Bo and Finn; Bo has orange fur and is very adventurous, and Finn is black and is both timid and standoffish. Older Sister, who lives with us, has three pets: Jasper, a coonhound/beagle mix, and he’s just a big whiny butt but we love him; Camille, a longhaired cat, whose nickname is Big Momma, because she’s such a mother hen; and Teag, a tiger-ish cat who is pretty feisty and independent and who likes everyone.
90. What is your greatest strength as a person? Weakness?
~ My greatest strengths are that I am observant and I always find a reason to hope. My greatest weakness would be that I am so darn shy.
91. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
~ I wish I could be well-read and witty and sarcastic, but nice about it.
92. Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
~ Introverted, most definitely.
93. Do you like yourself?
~ That’s been a long hard road, but yes. I like myself. I’m comfortable in my own skin.
94. Do you have a daily routine? How do you feel if your day is interrupted?
~ Yes. I thrive on routine. On weekdays, I’m up between 5:30 and 6:00; I get ready and head out the door by 7:20 to catch the 7:30 bus that goes by my street; I’m at work by 8:00 and I work until 4:30; then I wait for the bus to come through the work lot by 4:45, and I’m home by 5:00 on the dot; then I do stuff around the house and practice or go out with Johnny. Usually on weekdays, I’m in bed by 9:00. On weekends, I’m usually up between 7:30 and 8:00 and I’ll do whatever needs to be done to get through the day until 9:00 at night, when I head to bed, unless I go out with Johnny, and then it might be later than 9. It’s not a stringent routine, and I know it’s subject to change, however small. But when a change occurs, no matter how small, I get all flustered and I feel clumsy and stumbling all over the place. It’s awkward to me when the routine is interrupted.
95. What goal do you most want to accomplish in the next six months? Your lifetime?
~ In six months, I don’t know; I’m lucky I can figure out tomorrow! In my lifetime, I would like to write one novel and, perhaps, see it published.
96. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years?
~ Again, I can’t see past tomorrow! Ask me tomorrow!
97. If you could choose, how would you want to die?
~ By my own hand.
98. What is the one thing you would like to be remembered for after your death?
~ I don’t know. Mom says she would want everyone to know I was a good writer. Other than that, I guess I don’t know.
99. What three words would you use to best describe your personality?
~ Serious. Shy. Unconventional.
100. What three words would others probably use to describe you?
~ Plain. Quiet. Weird.
101. Why are you risking your life to adventure?
~ Because it’s all a big adventure. And this life is mine. Why not take a little risk? 🙂
Thank you all so much. Good night to you.
I’ll try to do better next post.