Social stress

This week starts my ‘summer hours’ at work. I will be working Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays, and I will have Fridays off. So, with the exception of the two holiday weeks (Memorial Day and 4th of July), I will have three-days weekends all summer long.

Bonus.

I’m just worried about this week. Specifically Wednesday.

The department staff is having their yearly movie outing on Wednesday afternoon. And they wanted me to participate. So I said okay. And then wondered why I said okay.

I’m just not….social.

Don’t get the wrong idea. I am not anti-social. But I’m no social butterfly.

I’m a shy person, not a cold person.

I am a proverbial wallflower. I don’t avoid social situations, but nine times out of ten, I do not want to be in them.

I also have social anxieties. It goes back to the bullying days, in that I think nobody likes me in the first place. Nine times out of ten again, I just want to run and hide until it’s time to go home. Or I find myself wishing I knew someone well enough to hide behind them the whole time.

I am going to go with the department staff. It’s just for a movie.

I just….don’t know how it’s going to turn out.

Anybody have any tips on how not to make a fool of myself?

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2 thoughts on “Social stress

  1. Movie means something to talk about…maybe check out the reviews or other things the actor or director has done before. Then just listen and only contribute if you want. Oh..and try not to think too much while with them! It will be fine

  2. I have recently been thinking about this…I was invited to two different events and decided not to go…I don’t really know why I didn’t want to go, I knew everyone there… What I do know is that I am not good at small talk, I like deep analytical philosophical conversations and people at parties don’t usually do that… I wish I knew the fine art of mingling and maybe that way I could start accepting invitations or just stop over thinking and attend… Complicated, right?! Read you soon 🙂 Alexandra

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