You’ll have to forgive the….well, I guess, abruptness that may be apparent in this post. I’ve not had the best past couple days, as you may know if you read my previous posts.
But I thought I’d just do this, just to do it.
And please please please do watch the little video at the end. I didn’t know about it until I saw it mentioned by several other people, and it made me cry some more.
Are you “with” the very last person you kissed?
~ No. Not anymore. It was my fault. Let’s just leave it at that.
Ever dated/kissed someone with the name Casey, Tyler, Ryan, Jordan, Colton, Rebecca, Samantha, Lauren, Taylor, or Ashley?
~ Nope, to all.
Was your last kiss standing up, sitting down, or lying down?
~ Standing up.
Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?
~ No. Not all of them.
Are you excited for anything?
~ Not really at the moment.
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
~ No. I could never hate Johnny. Like I said, Johnny is the best thing that ever happened to me, the best person I could have ever met. I wish him nothing but the very best, and I will always love Johnny.
You’re stuck in an elevator with one of your worst enemies. What do you do?
Will this weekend be a good one?
Are you mad at someone right now?
~ Just myself.
Do you like to listen to the radio in the car?
Do you sleep with a fan on?
~ Not at present, though I think this weekend at the store, I will purchase a small fan, just to have it running as like white noise, so that way I can fall asleep. I’ve been having trouble sleeping the past couple weeks.
How is your hair right now?
~ I don’t really care.
Have you ever broken up with someone for someone else?
How many windows are open on your computer?
How tall are you?
~ 5-feet, 4.5-inches.
Is something bothering you?
~ Yup. Lots of things. Don’t really feel like talking about them right now, though.
Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before?
Have you ever laughed at something that wasn’t meant to be funny?
~ Probably, but I don’t remember.
Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex “Fuck you”?
~ No, but I had ever opportunity to do so; this was back in the bullying days.
Do you like to cuddle?
Have you done anything sneaky lately?
Is your hair clean?
~ Does it matter?
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Were you happy when you woke up today?
What are you drinking right now?
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
~ All the time.
Does someone have feelings for you?
~ I don’t really know anymore. I hope so, though.
Have you ever been cheated on?
Are you hard to please?
~ No, not really.
What are you craving right now?
~ A hug!
How are you feeling right now?
~ Not good. Depressed. I’m actually crying right now, typing this. Depression.
What are you sick of?
Are you missing anyone/something?
Relationship to the last person you called?
~ The last person I called was my mother, so I’d be her daughter.
Could you date someone shorter than you?
Is there anybody you just wish would fall of the planet?
~ No. I wouldn’t wish that on anybody.
Do you wear glasses?
Where did you sleep last night?
~ On the air mattress.
Do you straighten your hair?
What color shirt are you wearing?
~ Purple. It’s actually my nightshirt.
Do you have a best friend?
~ Yes, in Johnny.
Do you wish you had the chance to go back in time and change something now?
Who is the last person you got a text from?
Are you excited for winter?
~ That remains to be seen.
When are you at your happiest?
~ Happiness seems a bit far lately. Ask me again sometime.
Is there anything you wish you did today? Why haven’t you done it?
~ I wish I had a job, so that way I could be working. As far as today, I wish I would have gone out and danced in the rain, like I wanted to. But then, I didn’t want to soak the carpet when I got back inside, so I stayed inside.
Do you prefer to spend your time indoors or outdoors?
~ I like both.
What were you doing before you started this survey?
~ Crying. Still crying.
Can you honestly say that you love yourself?
~ Don’t know anymore.
How many people have you kissed?
~ Other than family members on the cheek, just Johnny.
Do you just feel awkward when you dance?
~ Of course. I have no rhythm.
Do you think you spend too much time feeling upset?
~ Probably. Par for the course with depression.
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
~ Donald Trump.
Do you own a pair of Uggs?
What are your plans for tomorrow?
~ Look for more jobs, maybe make another blog post. Try to find a Friday Funny….maybe.
Has the person you have feelings for ever told you that you’re attractive?
~ Yes, but that was then. This is now.
Can you get over people easily?
~ Currently, no.
Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
How was your weekend?
~ I don’t remember what happened last weekend.
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
How do you feel right now?
~ Not good. Depressed. I’m actually crying right now, typing this. Depression.
Do you hide your feelings or show them?
~ I show them. I have always shown them. I’m not weak, okay? It takes a stronger person to show their feelings rather than to hide them. Showing your feelings takes a kind of strength. Not that I’ve always worn my heart on my sleeve, as the saying goes, but I am not the kind of person to hide how I feel.
Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
What is the last thing you cooked today?
~ Fish sticks. But then I wasn’t really all that hungry, so even though I ate them, I didn’t want to eat them. You know?
What do you always take with you?
~ Everything, metaphorically speaking. I have a lot of baggage.
Last person you drove around in a car with?
Do you think relationships are hard?
~ Yes. But I’d rather be in one than not in one. That doesn’t matter now, seeing as how I am no longer in one. But I’d still rather be in one.
What are your plans for this weekend?
~ Don’t know. It’s Labor Day weekend this weekend, as Dad reminded me today. I’d forgotten all about Labor Day.
Any friends who are constantly venting about their significant other?
~ No. I don’t have any friends, except for Johnny.
Have you ever been ice-skating?
~ Yes. Best Christmas Eve ever.
Does the sound of rain at night help you sleep?
Have you ever seen an albino person in person?
Do you like Fuze drinks?
Did the end of “Hamilton” make you sad?
~ Have never seen “Hamilton.”
Have you ever worn a pair of scrubs?
Do you obsessively apply lip-gloss or lip balm?
~ No. It’s reasonably applied.
Anything in your room that you’re hiding from your parents or someone else?
Do you think you’d have what it takes to shoot someone if you had to protect yourself?
What’s your most noticeable flaw?
And what’s your best feature?
~ Don’t really have one.
Have you ever walked into a massive cobweb?
When you can tell that someone’s lying, do you call them out on it?
~ Not usually.
Have you ever hallucinated?
Do you find serial killers fascinating?
Do you like musicals?
Is your hair damaged?
Do you live with anyone that you try to avoid at all costs?
Who was the last person you threw out of your life?
~ I haven’t.
Are you wearing socks?
~ Not at present.
Do you regret something you did yesterday?
~ Not yesterday.
When was the last time you cried?
~ I’m crying right now.
Why were you crying?
~ Too many thoughts.
What’s the last thing you ate?
~ A cookie.
What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
~ My pajama bottoms. They match my pajama top, in case you were wondering.
What do you hear right now?
~ Nothing except the keys clacking as I type.
How many hours did you sleep last night?
~ Don’t remember. Perhaps that means I did actually sleep last night….
Is something bothering you right now?
~ Yes. Too much, in fact.
In the past week, have you gotten sick?
~ No. But I do currently have cramps, as it is that time of month. TMI, for sure, but, hey, the question was asked.
In the past week, have you felt stupid?
In the past week, have you got your hair cut?
What were you doing at 9 AM this morning?
~ Curling up on the sofa for a nap. True story.
In the past week, have you felt sad?
~ All week.
Has someone disappointed you recently?
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
If you could pack up and move, would you?
~ Yes. In December – that might be my next and perhaps final move.
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
~ Johnny and Dad. In fact, Johnny and I are texting right now.
So ends that questionnaire.
In closing, I leave you with this, a “secret,” courtesy of the late great Gene Wilder as the Fox from the 1974 movie “The Little Prince.” Like I said, I knew nothing about this particular movie until I saw several others mention it after Wilder’s passing. Only just today, I gathered up the courage to watch the relevant section of the movie that featured the Fox, and, like I said, it made me cry. So.
But the “secret” is true:
I’ll try to do better next post.