Okay, I’ll admit it – I’m wasting time.
What I mean is, I actually had homework from the job today. My self-review is due before Thursday (read – tomorrow), and I have yet to finish it. So I brought it home to work on it tonight.
Yeah, not making much progress.
So instead I’m listening to my Pandora stream, filling out this questionnaire.
Let me just say – I am no good at talking myself up. I can be honest, but I’m not good at talking myself up. Last year, Diane recommended that I not fill out the self-review, because I was being “too negative” in my comments, even though I was being honest.
Anyway, here is the questionnaire.
1. How are you, really?
~ I’m just fine, thank you.
2. How do you feel right now? What are you thinking about?
~ I am tired, but good. I am thinking about nothing in particular, but about the future in general, if that makes sense. Vague, I know, but there it is.
3. What’s your favorite color?
4. What’s your favorite food?
~ Don’t really have one. I like food, but there are times I don’t like it. I mean, I know we need it to survive, but sometimes I wish we didn’t.
5. What’s your favorite dessert?
~ I have a sweet tooth all around. The only dessert I don’t like is most types of pie (except french silk pie – I love french silk pie; it’s chocolate, so go figure).
6. How old are you?
~ I am old enough, but not so. I’ll always be a child at heart. Does that make sense?
7. What have you learned today?
~ About the Muslim situation in my city and my state. I really don’t think it’s right that we’re turning away Syrian refugees. This country was basically founded by immigrants, if you think about it, so it doesn’t make sense to turn them away now. Did you know the oldest mosque in America is located in the city I live in? I did not know that.
8. What was your favorite subject in school?
~ English or writing.
9. What do you do?
~ Currently, I am a records specialist at a local insurance company. I am also a writer, and it does help to declare myself as such.
10. What are some of your favorite books?
~ The Language of Goldfish by Zibby O’Neal is my all-time favorite. Otherwise, I like anything by Sylvia Plath and Sarah Vowell. I have a whole mini-library of books.
11. What are some of your favorite movies?
~ It runs the gamut. “Badlands” is my all-time favorite movie, though.
12. What kind of music are you into?
~ All of it. I have eclectic taste.
13. If you were going to write a book, what would you call it, and what would it be about?
~ See my “Works in Progress” page for more such information. If it were an autobiography or memoir, though, I’d probably call it Poor Original.
14. What’s one of the scariest things you’ve ever done?
~ Anything to do with heights, because I’m slightly scared of heights. And the Ring of Fire ride at the Iowa State Fair – it was a ride that did a complete 360. Scary as heck!
15. What accomplishment are you most proud of?
~ Living. I’m serious.
16. Are you married?
17. How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend?
~ We met online, then in person.
18. Do you think it’s better to get married when you’re young or better to wait a while?
~ By my experience, I’ll have waited a while, which I think is better for me. It all depends on an individual.
19. Do you have any kids?
~ No, but I would like some in the future. Right now, I’m not quite in a good financial position to have children.
20. Have you ever thought of adopting?
~ Like I said, I would like children. Right now, it just isn’t feasible. I don’t care how I come by a child, whether natural or adoption. I’m completely open to adoption.
21. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
~ A writer, no lie. Or else a singer, actress, or meteorologist.
22. How did you get into [INSERT CAREER FIELD]?
~ Basically insurance. Call it a family thing – my dad works in insurance, and I believe my aunt Laurie and uncle Larry do as well.
23. Would you recommend [INSERT CAREER FIELD] for other people? Why or why not?
~ I would. Because it’s interesting and challenging work.
24. What do you do for fun?
~ Write, read, listen to music, walk, bike, swim, blog, travel, play with pets, hang out with friends.
25. Do you like traveling?
~ Love it!
26. If you could visit any country in the world, where would you go?
27. Who are some people you’d like to meet someday?
~ There are too many to name, both famous and non-famous.
28. If someone asked you to give them a random piece of advice, what would you say?
~ I honestly don’t know. I’m not the kind of person who is good at giving advice. I would say something like “Keep holding on, because it will all get better.”
29. What’s one of your favorite habits you have?
30. What are some things that make you really happy?
~ Everything and anything anymore.
31. What are some things that make you really sad?
~ Everything and anything can make me sad – par for the course with depression.
32. What are some things that scare you?
~ Bees, needles, driving (to a degree).
33. Do you like to plan things out or be spontaneous?
~ A little of both.
34. Are you a religious person?
~ I was born and raised Catholic, and while I still observe certain events within the Catholic calendar (namely Lent), it really has no bearing anymore.
35. If you could go back in history, who would you like to meet?
~ Sylvia Plath.
36. Would you rather live in the country or in the city?
~ I could live in either place. I prefer the country with its quiet solitude and peaceful scenery, but then I like the city with all the hustle and bustle.
37. What was your life like growing up?
~ It was no different than anyone else’s. Except I knew from a very early age that something was not quite right with me. Took twelve/seventeen years to diagnose it as depression.
38. What were you like in high school?
~ A raging closeted goth. And a loner. And a band geek. And a semi-nerd. And a bookworm. And a writer. I was all over the map in high school!
39. Do you have any brothers or sisters? How many?
~ Three: Older Sister, Younger Brother, and Youngest Brother.
40. What’s your favorite part about today so far?
~ Getting some more of my room done.
41. Who in your life has influenced you the most? How did they do it?
~ My parents. Just by being.
42. What’s your favorite joke?
~ “Hey, want a Hertz donut?” thwap across the arm when they say ‘yes’ “Hurts, don’t it?”
43. Have you ever tried sushi? (Did you like it?)
~ Yes, and yes. It was an ahi tuna piece. It was really good.
44. Do you like spicy food?
~ As long as it isn’t too spicy, spicy is all right.
45. How do you like your steak cooked?
~ Well-done. But I have to be in the right mood for steak.
46. Do you have a favorite number? Any particular reason why you like that number?
~ 5 and 7, just because those are sorta traditional lucky numbers. And then 17, for obvious reasons.
47. If you were a type of animal, what would you be and why?
~ A cat. Just to lounge belly-first in the sunbeam. :) Or else a mouse, for obvious reasons.
48. What’s one of the strangest things you’ve ever done?
~ Sneaked into someone else’s house. Eh, another story for another time.
49. What kind of vacations do you like?
~ I like vacations that are planned yet spontaneous. Like, we can go out of town to a predetermined destination, but when we get there the sky’s the limit on what we do. We don’t exactly plan out what to do – we just let the vacation happen. You know?
50. What are some of your major goals in life?
~ To write one novel and maybe see it published; to perhaps be married and have children; to go back to school; to travel outside the country once more.
51. What are some of your smaller goals in life?
~ To get my driver’s license; to continue to write; to continue to plug away at daily life.
52. What do you like least about yourself?
~ That I’m so darn shy and awkward.
53. What embarrasses you?
~ People who don’t have a clue. No, this is weird. For example, there is a guy who rides the bus who is mentally disabled. And he is sex-obsessed, because he tells anyone who will listen that he can’t wait to have sex with his girlfriend, and how someone accused him and his girlfriend of already having sex (while on the bus), and they’re working out how to have unsupervised visits, yada yada. And I feel embarrassed for him, because he doesn’t really know any better that people don’t want to hear that stuff, you know? I embarrass easily, I guess is what I’m trying to say.
54. If you could try out any job for a day, what would you like to try?
~ A meteorologist.
55. What’s your earliest memory?
~ One of my fondest is of me, Older Sister, and a couple uncles running through the leaves in the park in the small Illinois town where we began life.
56. What’s the best decision you ever made?
~ This may sound morbid, but trying to take my own life.
57. Who’s your best/closest friend?
58. What do you think people think of you?
~ I don’t really care anymore, though I’m sure they think I’m quiet.
59. What were your grades like in school?
~ They weren’t terrible, but they weren’t great either.
60. If you could learn one random skill, what would you learn?
~ Drawing and painting!
61. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
~ I’d be more of an ambivert, to tell the truth.
62. Have you ever taken a personality test? How did the results turn out?
~ I took the MBTI, and I turned out to be an INFP (in case you were curious). Contradicting my ‘ambivert’ answer, it wasn’t far from the truth.
63. What’s the first thing you notice about people?
~ Personality. Seriously. I can tell instantly about people.
64. Do you think people can control their own destiny?
~ To a degree.
65. Do you think all people are equally valuable, or do you think some people in certain situations might be more valuable than others?
~ All people are equally valuable.
66. Do you think people are basically good or basically bad?
~ I believe that people are basically good unless they prove otherwise.
67. Do you think morals are universal or relative to the beliefs, traditions, and practice of individuals or groups?
~ I used to think they were universal when I was a child, but I’d have to say now that they’re relative. Hate to think like this, but someone somewhere honestly thinks blowing people up or shooting people on a massive scale is good in the eyes of whatever god they believe in.
68. Do you think God exists?
~ He’d better. That’s all I have to say.
69. Do you think any kind of afterlife exists?
~ Again, it better. I hope to see a couple people there, happier than they’ve ever been.
70. Do you vote? Why or why not? If you do vote, how do you usually vote?
~ Yeah, I vote. Not like it matters in the long run. I vote because I can. As to how I usually vote, I usually try to go with who I think is the lesser of two evils. So far, the outcomes have been half and half. I’ll keep you posted as to the next one. Let me put it this way – I already know who I’m not voting for.
71. Do you think gay people choose to be gay? Do you think straight people choose to be straight?
~ I think people can be wired differently than each other. I do not think being gay or straight is a choice. I think it is entirely innate. I do not see anything wrong with anyone being gay, straight, bisexual, or transgendered, or any other such orientation. People are people, and they’re doing the best they can. And the good Lord hasn’t smote any of us yet, so make of that what you will.
72. Is torture ever a good option? If no, why not? If yes, under what circumstances?
~ I hate the very idea of torture, in any form, so no. Because what does it really accomplish?
73. Would you kill an innocent person if you thought it might mean saving a dozen other lives?
74. What’s the most money you’ve ever given away?
~ I haven’t. I’m not a penny pincher, but I haven’t made donating to causes a habit. I should really change that.
75. What’s the biggest personal change you’ve ever made?
~ I have made so many personal changes, it’s hard to say which is the biggest. Perhaps dating is the biggest, because I put my trust in someone other than family. It’s been good so far, cross my fingers. I like Johnny a lot, and I don’t wish to lose his companionship.
76. What’s the stupidest thing you’ve ever done?
~ Sneaked into someone else’s house. Hey, I was five! That’s another story for another time.
77. What do you think would be one of the best steps we could take toward ending poverty around the world?
~ This is going to sound bad, but I honestly don’t know. Maybe have fair food prices?
78. What do you think we could do to best improve the education system?
~ I don’t know. Do away with superfluous standardized testing? I mean, keep the SAT and ACT, but do away with all the others. I never got behind standardized testing.
79. In general, what do you think about art?
~ Art is imagination and life and warmth and profound. How I wish I could draw and paint, but I really can’t.
80. What are some of your favorite websites?
~ WordPress (duh), Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, NaNoWriMo, Modcloth, Etsy, Pinterest.
81. What’s the biggest turnoff in a man/woman?
~ The biggest turnoff in anybody, at least to me, is intolerance or hatred.
82. What’s the biggest lie you’ve ever told?
~ That I had my homework done when I really didn’t. That was in third grade, and because of the repercussions of my lie, I haven’t told a lie since.
83. What’s something most people don’t know about you?
~ Believe it or not, I wasn’t always this shy and quiet. Bullying can do a number on a personality.
84. What’s something you wish everyone knew about you?
~ That I can be funny.
85. What are some of the first things you do in the morning?
~ Well, duh, I pee. Then I’ll either get my medicine or get dressed, depending on what I feel like doing first.
86. What’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to you?
~ A suicide attempt.
87. Do you cry easily?
~ I can cry easier than most people, but I do not cry easily, if that makes sense.
88. How do you feel about public speaking?
~ I’d rather curl up under a rock, but I am much more confident about it than I was, say, as a seventeen-year-old.
89. Do you like to talk on the phone?
90. How many emails do you get each week, roughly?
~ Personally or at work? Plenty either way.
91. If someone were to make a movie about your life, who would you hope would play you?
~ It would have to be someone unknown. Hey, as they say, everyone has a doppelganger somewhere in the world. Somewhere some girl strongly resembles me. Good to know.
92. What’s one of your favorite questions to ask new friends or to get a conversation going?
~ I like to ask about music. That is, if I am brave enough to open my mouth.
93. Would you ever sky dive or bungee jump?
~ I wouldn’t bungee jump, that’s for sure – too much could go wrong. At least with sky diving, there are usually professionals involved, but I’d only want to go with a group of people.
94. Have you ever been in a fist fight?
~ Almost. I slapped a boy named Robert once, because he was picking on me. But he didn’t hit me back. He ran away instead.
95. What’s the best prank you’ve ever pulled?
~ I haven’t. I’m a good girl. However, the best prank I’ve ever heard pulled off was when the band was in Europe. Some of the kids sneaked out of their rooms in the middle of the night and knocked on random doors. Hey, considering the band director, that prank was pretty funny.
96. What did you do on your sixteenth birthday?
~ Hmm. Good question. Let me consult my old journals……..um, it was that time of month on my sixteenth birthday, so I didn’t feel like doing much. So I barely celebrated. It was just another day. I’ve always felt that way about my birthday – it’s just another day.
97. What do you think is one of the most undervalued professions right now?
98. How would you explain your basic life philosophy?
~ It’s hard to sum up, really. No, it really is. I haven’t quite figured it out yet.
99. Would you rather be hated or forgotten?
100. If you knew you would die tomorrow, would you feel cheated today?
Well, that’s done. I guess I’ll work on my review after all then.