Yes, I’m still here

Okay, so it’s been about two weeks since I posted last.  I apologize for that.  I’ve been incredibly busy, and the blog just took a back seat.  I will do my best to post more often.

So, what’s been going on?

First of all, I am almost done with drivers ed class; the last classroom is April 1st.  As for driving lessons, I have three left, and they are going really well.  This past Sunday saw me taking to the highway for the first time.  I loved highway driving!  There wasn’t as much pressure as there is with city driving.  As a bonus, I didn’t have a major anxiety attack beforehand.  I am practicing driving, and they’re right – it gets better with practice.  So I am looking forward to getting my license perhaps by late spring or early summer….and perhaps my first car.

Wow.  I’ve come a long way.

Work is going good, too.  I have started a training program at work called Couch to 5K.  It is exactly what it sounds like – it is a program for beginner runners to work their way up to running a 5K.  It’s a nine-week program.  This past Tuesday was Week 2.  I like running, and it’s going to be a good class.  We have two days worth of homework in addition to the class.  Older Sister is my homework buddy, so we run together every Thursday and Sunday.  I feel better when I’m done running.  I’ll keep at it.

I have a voice recital coming up in May.  I’ll be singing “On My Own” from “Les Miserables.”  I’m really working on it, so.

In guitar lessons, I’m working on that Duncan Sheik song “Barely Breathing.”  It’s been really fun.

I’m off work today, because I had an oddly timed dental appointment to get a permanent crown affixed. 

My boyfriend comes home on Saturday.  He’s been in California visiting his family since last week Wednesday.  I get to pick him up at the airport on Saturday (along with my mom to drive, of course).  I am counting the days.  Can’t wait!  I really like Johnny, very much.

I had a doctor appointment on Monday, just for the yearly physical and blood draw to check cholesterol.  I am healthy.  That’s all you need to know.

This Is My Brave happens in May.  There are a couple rehearsals coming up, which I will attend.  I have some more editing to do on my piece, to get it to under 5 minutes, but it will be done.  I can’t wait to tell my story.

So, that’s been life lately.  Running and driving and working and boyfriend and….life. 

Yeah.  It’s all good.  :)

I’ll try to stay in touch more.

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Hmm….

So I found this particular quote in a packet of gum. Yeah, I know.

But it was compelling, so I kept it.

But I’m wondering why.

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Yes, I get it. I do understand.

But nobody’s perfect.

So what does this quote really mean?

I’m probably just missing the point. As usual.

Anyone care to enlighten me?

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Two more questionnaires

Because I don’t want to go to sleep just yet, and I wanted to post something, so here it is. They’re both short, and I liked doing them, so.

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QUESTIONNAIRE NO. 1:

Was your last real relationship a mistake?
~ I have only been in one real relationship, and that’s the one I’m currently in, and it is definitely NOT a mistake.

Who did you last say “I love you” to?
~ My mom.

Do you regret it?
~ Hell no. She’s my mother.

Have you ever been depressed?
~ I am depressed, yes. I’ve always been depressed.

Are you a boy or girl?
~ I am a girl.

What is your relationship status?
~ I am in a relationship with a great guy.

How do you want to die?
~ I don’t really want to think about that right this moment, thankyouverymuch.

What did you last eat?
~ Mint chocolate chip ice cream.

Played any sports?
~ Yes. When I was little, I played teeball and soccer. I love volleyball, biking, walking, and swimming. And hopefully running soon, because I signed up for a training class at work that involves running.

Do you bite your nails?
~ Not anymore. In fact, you’d never know I used to bite them.

When was your last physical fight?
~ Years and years ago, back when I was in elementary school. I was trying to get a bully away from me, and hit the kid.

Do you have an attitude?
~ Sure. Everyone does. Although I like to think my attitude has mellowed with age.

Do you like someone?
~ Yes, my boyfriend Johnny.

What is your real name?
~ Mousenomia Tadpole. But just wait for it.

Are you gonna get high later?
~ On drugs? No. On life? Yes.

Do you hate anyone at the moment?
~ Nope, not at the moment.

Do you miss someone?
~ Yes, my Younger Brother and my Dad.

Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
~ When I was little, I had to cut my spaghetti, because I didn’t know how to twirl it. Nowadays, I twirl it. I don’t even remember how and when I learned to do so.

Do you tan a lot?
~ Not anymore. I used to as a child. Now I just burn, and I burn easily.

Have any pets?
~ I have a cat named Nuala and a parakeet named Little Blue. My Older Sister has three pets, a dog named Jasper and two cats named Camille and Teag, and they are just as much the family’s pets as they are Older Sister’s.

How exactly are you feeling?
~ Tired but happy.

Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
~ I have only eaten food in a car when someone else is driving. I don’t think I could multitask like that at this stage in my driving development.

Ever made out in the bathroom?
~ No. I don’t think that would be hygenic, do you?

Would you take any of your exes back?
~ That would require having any exes first.

Are you scared of spiders?
~ Yes. I am such a girl!

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
~ That depends on what time period it would be, because I’m assuming I’d only get one chance.

Do you regret anything from your past?
~ Yes. One is not having a closer relationship with my cousin Gina. The other is not holding someone’s hand when I had the chance; that’s another story for another time.

What are your plans for this weekend?
~ My guitar lesson, my driving lesson, and hanging out with Johnny. And perhaps taking a walk or a bike ride, depending on the weather. But it should be nice, so a walk or bike ride is a possibility.

Do you want to have kids?
~ Yes, absolutely.

Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
~ Yes, my Mom.

Do you type fast?
~ Yes. Last time I was tested, it was about 90 words per minute.

Do you have piercings? How many?
~ I have two piercings in each ear.

Want any more?
~ I’ve thought about getting my ears pierced a third time – that way, I could wear studs, silver half-hoops, and a main pair of earrings all at once. But I had some problems with the second piercing, so I think I’ll hold off on that.

Can you spell well?
~ Yes, ever since elementary school. I love words.

Do you miss anyone from your past?
~ Sort of. I wish I hadn’t lost touch with my friends Cora and Serena. But that’s about it.

What are you craving right now?
~ Thin mint cookies.

Ever been to a bonfire party?
~ Yes. My aunt Ellen used to host Halloween parties, and bonfires played a part. I love bonfires.

Have you ever been on a horse?
~ Yes. Its name was Rattles, and it was an ornery beast, let me tell you.

Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
~ No.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
~ No. At least, I hope not.

Have you ever been cheated on?
~ No.

Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
~ No. Not a boyfriend, anyway….at least, I hope not. A girl friend, yes.

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
~ Yes.

What should you be doing?
~ Sleeping.

What’s irritating you right now?
~ I itch for some reason, on my arms, and I can’t figure out why.

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
~ Yes.

Does somebody love you?
~ Well, my family does, unconditionally. As to anyone outside my family, well, I don’t want to be a spokesperson for anyone else’s feelings, so.

What is your favorite colour?
~ Blue.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
~ Yes, when we were on a family trip to Colorado. I was soaking wet from a dip in the Colorado River, and I needed to change clothes. The only place I could do that in private was in a parked vehicle, so.

Do you have trust issues?
~ Hard to say. I think I’m too trusting, but it takes a while for me to trust someone, if that makes any sense at all.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
~ Yes. If I think about it, I always have.

Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
~ That would require having an ex, so no.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
~ My driving instructor. I had another anxiety attack before driving this morning.

Do you give out second chances too easily?
~ I don’t think so. I give them out just enough.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
~ You forgive so you can forget sometimes. But it’s just better to forgive.

Is this year the best year of your life?
~ It is shaping up to be. But don’t jinx it, please.

What was your childhood nickname?
~ I can’t tell you that, because the future depends on it.

Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
~ No. I wouldn’t, either.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
~ To an extent, yes.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
~ Turned off the light.

What is bothering you?
~ Nothing major, really. I’ve got a bit of a headache, but that’ll go away when I go to sleep. I have a particular train of thought that’s bothering me, but I don’t wish to discuss that on the blog just yet.

Have you ever been out of your province?
~ You mean out of my state of residence? Sure, many times.

Do you play the Wii?
~ No.

Are you listening to music right now?
~ Not currently. It’s almost bedtime.

Do you like Chinese food?
~ Yes.

Do you know your fathers b-day?
~ Yes. It’s in July. And I do know the exact date, but I won’t reveal that here.

Are you afraid of the dark?
~ I used to be, but not anymore.

Is cheating ever okay?
~ No.

Are you mean?
~ I hope not.

Can you keep white shoes clean?
~ Nope. Believe me, I’ve tried.

Do you believe in true love?
~ Yes.

Do you like the outside?
~ Yes. Except for when bees are around. Then, I hightail it back inside.

Are you currently bored?
~ A little.

Do you wanna get married?
~ Perhaps, if it’s the right person. I dunno – I’m sort of torn. I’d guess I’d like to marry, but my parents are divorced and I’m just afraid of making similar missteps. Nothing against my parents or anything. It’s just me.

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
~ Yeah, I think so. I mean, I have been called that, so, yeah.

Are you hungry?
~ Currently? A little.

Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
~ Um….well….

What makes you happy?
~ My family, my pets, my boyfriend, writing a good story or poem, listening to a good song, a sunny day, a rainy day, a snowy day, this list could go on and on, but I’ll quit there.

Would you change your name?
~ Perhaps. I’ve always like the name Sarah.

Ever been to Alaska?
~ No.

Do you watch the news?
~ I try to every night. It’s routine.

What’s your zodiac sign?
~ Capricorn.

Do you like Subway?
~ Yes.

Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
~ No.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you. What do you do?
~ I don’t really know. I mean, I’m in a relationship with my best friend of the opposite sex, so I don’t really know. And it wasn’t an awkward transition at all.

Do you talk like your friends?
~ No. Sometimes, I don’t talk at all.

Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
~ Yes. Sorry. It’s an anxiety thing with me. If I’m in the store, and I see someone I know, I will avoid them, because it feels weird to see them, and because I’m currently focused on my shopping, I will feel like my routine is broken if I stop and talk to them. I know that sounds weird, but I’ve always been that way. Like, I’ve seen Doris (my boss’ boss) at Wal-Mart before, and that was just awkward to me.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
~ Yes, my boyfriend Johnny.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
~ Johnny.

Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
~ Yes. I would not like it.

Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
~ Johnny.

Favourite lyrics right now?
~ I can’t remember what they were, but it was a repeated phrase, and it was really cool.

Can you count to one million?
~ One, two, skip a few, nine hundred ninety-nine thousand nine hundred ninety-nine, one million. There. I just did.

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QUESTIONNAIRE NO. 2:

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
~ Yes. But it’s difficult for me to make someone smile. I wish I was more witty.

Tell me why you like the last song you listened to?
~ That was “Summerlong” by Kathleen Edwards. It’s so plaintive and lovely a song.

What color are your eyes?
~ Brown.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
~ Um….well….

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
~ My boyfriend, my father, my grandfathers, my brothers, my uncles, my male cousins, Doctor, Dr. S Version 2.0. That’s quite a few.

What would your name be without the first three letters?
~ Se. That’s “Mouse” without the “mou.”

Last thing you touched not computer-related?
~ My light switch.

What colors are you wearing right now?
~ Grey and black, for the most part. And white socks.

You currently in a fight with someone?
~ Nope.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
~ No. I am guilty of keeping silent when I should have spoken up, on many occasions.

Do you have an older brother?
~ No.

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
~ Yes, but that was a long time ago. I can’t even remember what it was about, but I know relatives were involved.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
~ No.

What are you listening to right now?
~ My sister is watching “New Girl” in her room next door. And the keyboard clattering as I type this.

Do you laugh a lot?
~ Nowadays, yes.

Are you ticklish?
~ Probably. It’s been a long time since I’ve been tickled. I think everyone is ticklish, in their own way.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
~ Writing, music, my family, my boyfriend, taking a walk, sleeping if I’m really upset.

Have you ever been on a boat?
~ Yes. And I wish it had been more memorable than I made it out to be, because it was a boat cruise on the Rhine River in Germany.

Last person you gave a hug to?
~ My mom.

Tell me about the shirt/shirts you’re wearing?
~ It’s grey and black, soft, and it’s “Despicable Me” related, as it has a picture of one of the Minions on it, and he’s waving, and the word “GEEK” is above his head in collegiate style lettering. Pretty cool, because I am a geek for the most part.

When you are home alone, do you still close the door when you shower?
~ Yes. Call it a habit.

Do you have plans for today?
~ Not anymore for today, other than sleep. Tomorrow I’ll go to work, then come home, and then go right to driving class.

When is the last time you took a nap?
~ Egad! I can’t remember! December sometime, I think. I wasn’t feeling well one particular weekend, so I napped a lot that weekend and felt better by Monday. So.

What was on your mind most today?
~ Johnny. I know that’s a who, but he was on my mind the most.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
~ When I was younger, I was almost forced to hide them, because no one wanted to be bothered with me. These days, I try to be more open about my feelings, because keeping them inside hurts more.

What instant messaging service do you use?
~ Um. Whatever text messaging service is on my phone? I don’t have an IM of any sort on the computer.

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
~ Between 15 and 20 minutes, depending.

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
~ I have three siblings, Older Sister and my two younger Brothers. Yes, we get along.

What are you drinking?
~ Nothing at the moment.

Honestly, if you could go back 8 months and change something, would you?
~ Yes. I’d go back to September and try to head off my depressed streak before it even happened. (That’s almost 8 months, cut me some slack.)

Do you know what you’re wearing tomorrow?
~ Yes. Clothes. As to what specific clothes, I will determine that in the morning.

Do you know anyone who smokes weed?
~ No.

I best head to sleep now, because I have to go to work tomorrow.

Good night!

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50 Obscure Questions

So. Having fun with questionnaires, again. I found this somewhere, can’t remember where, and felt like filling it in.

Don’t worry. I will have more posts of substance in the future. :)

1: What eye color do you find sexiest?
~ Blue. But I appreciate brown much more now. *blushing*

2: White, milk, or dark chocolate mocha?
~ Milk chocolate. But not as a mocha – I don’t drink coffee.

3: If you could get a Sharpie tattoo on your back, what would it be?
~ On my lower back, I’d get a barcode design with the words “Poor Original” embedded within. Bonus points if you could actually scan the barcode. tee hee.

4: Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it?
~ I grew up in a small town in central Illinois. Yes, I liked it. Often times I’ve wondered what would have happened if we had never moved from there….

5: Your favorite adult as a child (and not your parents, if they were your favorite)?
~ My uncle Thomas.

6: What kind of smoothie sounds really good right now?
~ A mint breeze smoothie from a local cafe.

7: Most embarrassing moment from your elementary school years?
~ Well, being bullied. That was all-encompassing embarrassing.

8: Most embarrassing moment from your middle school years?
~ Ooh, I know. That whole “Sweatin’ to the Oldies” unit in gym class. As in Richard Simmons’ “Sweatin’ to the Oldies.” And we had to do it in the hallway, because the gym was being renovated (if I remember correctly), so anyone walking through the halls saw the class doing it. Totally embarrassing. No offense meant to Richard Simmons, but I’ve always been vaguely embarrassed by him anyway, and I have no idea why.

9: Most embarrassing moment from your high school years?
~ When the bullies read my journal, claiming they thought it was my school notebook because “You’re always writing in it!” Well, yeah, but it’s personal, not for your eyes. You know? I almost died of embarrassment and anger that day.

10: Pirates or ninjas? Why?
~ Pirates. Just because. I really liked the “Pirates of the Caribbean” movies.

11: Have you ever climbed a tree more than twenty feet off the ground?
~ Yup, back when I was little. I would climb higher than that, I think. I liked swaying with the breeze in the branches and the leaves.

12: Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set?
~ I loved to swing. Yes, I still love swinging, but I don’t do it, because I weigh too much.

13: If you could have any pet in the world, illegal or not, what would you get?
~ Just a little grey rabbit. Or else a ferret.

14: What’s your most favorite part of your body?
~ My hands, I guess. I don’t know. I don’t think like that.

15: What’s your most favorite part of your personality?
~ That it’s unconventional.

16: Madonna or Lady Gaga? Neither? Both? Who cares?
~ Who cares?

17: Have you ever watched the Super Bowl all the way through?
~ Years ago, when the boys and Dad were really into sports. I think the last Super Bowl we really watched, the Packers won.

18: Have you ever watched any major sporting event drunk?
~ Nope. I have not ever drunk and will not ever drink alcohol.

19: What’s the most delicious food you’ve ever eaten in your life?
~ Ricotta pancakes. Only problem is, they are super rich, and you can’t eat any more than you’re served. Sometimes, I can’t even eat the whole serving.

20: Margarine or butter? Which did you grow up with?
~ Margarine, I think. We tended to use margarine for bread and butter, and real butter for cooking purposes. So I grew up with both.

21: Whole, skim, 1%, or 2% milk? (Did you know they make 1 1/2% milk?)
~ Either 1% or skim milk. No, I did not know they made 1.5% milk. Hmm.

22: Which continents have you been on?
~ Europe and the United States.

23: Do you get motion sickness? Any horror stories?
~ No, though I once took Dramamine before a flight as a precaution.

24: Backpacks or satchels?
~ Backpacks.

25: Would you wear a rainbow jacket? A neon yellow sweater? Checkered pants?
~ I would wear the jacket or the sweater. Not the pants.

26: What was your favorite cartoon growing up?
~ I had several. I can’t pick just one, because it varied so much. Like, there was “He-Man” and “She-Ra” in there, and “Jem and the Holograms,” and “Inspector Gadget,” and “Garfield and Friends,” not to mention all the old Nicktoons and Cartoon Cartoons. Plus there were all the Looney Tunes and Merrie Melodies. And Pink Panther. And “Tiny Toons” and “Animaniacs.” And those old Disney series, like “Darkwing Duck” and “Tale Spin.” Yeah, I can’t pick just one favorite. I loved them all. I think cartoons are the greatest pop culture medium there is.

27: If you had to have a cow or a pig, which would you take? Why?
~ A cow. Because cows are just so sweet and gentle. Nothing against pigs, though.

28: If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be?
~ New York. Or San Francisco. I don’t know for sure.

29: Longest plane ride you’ve ever been on?
~ It was a little over 8 hours, from New York to Paris. At least, I think it was 8 hours. Might have been more. I don’t really remember.

30: The latest you’ve ever slept?
~ Until 1 in the afternoon. I’d been really sick, though.

31: Would you buy a sweater covered in kitten pictures? Would you wear it if someone gave it you for free?
~ No, I wouldn’t buy it. But I might wear it at least once if it was given as a gift.

32: Do you pick at scabs?
~ Yes. That’s a bad habit I have.

33: Favorite kind of bean? Kidney? Black? Pinto?
~ I’m not a big bean eater. I can’t even eat green beans anymore.

34: How far can you throw a baseball?
~ I don’t know. It’s been a long time since I’ve thrown a baseball.

35: If you had to move to another country, where would you move?
~ Probably to Europe somewhere.

36: Have you ever eaten Ethiopian food? Vietnamese? Korean? Nepalese? How was it?
~ I’ve had Vietnamese food before, thanks to Johnny; it was shrimp pho, and it was delicious! As for Ethiopian, Korean, or Nepalese food, I’d be up to trying them.

37: Small, liberal arts school or public university? Why?
~ Small liberal arts school, because they usually have enough staff for one-on-one interactions, if need be. When I went to college for the first time, that’s the way it was.

38: A relationship with love or one with sex?
~ Love. I mean, both love and sex are important, but love would be most important.

39: Do you eat enough vegetables?
~ No, and I need to change that.

40: Do you like horror movies? How about thrillers?
~ I went through a phase where horror movies were all I would watch, but I grew out of that phase. I cannot believe I was once a fan of “Suspiria”! Eek! Certain thrillers are still good, but I don’t watch them on a regular basis.

41: Would you scratch a crotch itch in public?
~ Uh, no. Used to work for an attorney who would ‘adjust’ himself in public. Ew.

42: Do you swear in front of your parents?
~ Before, never. Nowadays, yes.

43: Coolest thing you’ve ever been for Halloween?
~ A spider queen.

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The costume was not mine, though. I think it was aunt Ellen’s. So.

44: If you could change your natural hair color, would you? To what?
~ I would change it permanently to auburn if I could, because I have reddish highlights in my hair anyway.

45: Do you want to get married? Have kids?
~ I would like to have children, yes. Not sure about marriage; not like there’s a long story behind that, but my parents are divorced, and I’d be afraid of making the same, um, missteps, I guess is the best way to put it. But if it’s the right person, I would. I’ve actually been thinking about that a lot lately….

46: Do you use a reusable water bottle? If not, you should.
~ I do. I’m not an extreme tree hugger or anything, but I do my part to protect the environment.

47: City or nature person?
~ Nature person.

48: Have you ever used something other than “makeup” as makeup? (Like paint? Markers?)
~ Yes, back when I was really little.

49: Can you walk well in high heels? Even if you’re a guy?
~ No. So I will never wear high heels.

50: Post 5 awesome things about yourself. BRAG AWAY!
~ You know, I’m not going to do that, because I’ve sort of done that already. Just go binge read past entries, if you want to know something “awesome.” But here’s something I’ve mentioned before, but feel like mentioning again: I have been told, by many a discerning Iowan, that I have a Wisconsin accent. I myself don’t hear it, but there must be something in the way I talk that reminds Iowans of Wisconsin. So I don’t know. It’s a mystery!

This was fun! Good night!

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I STAND CORRECTED!

And I’m shouting because I’m excited!

I DID make This Is My Brave!

Not long after I made the previous post, I got an email saying I had made the final cut, and I am officially a part of the cast!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

The show is in May, and I will have someone there to video tape it. There will be a couple rehearsals between now and then; times will be decided.

Oh my gosh! I can share my story!

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Tidbits, and another survey

Hi, all! How have things been going with you?

So. First things first. I did not make the cut for the local production of This Is My Brave. I’m sorta bummed about that, actually. I guess mine was not a compelling enough story, perhaps. But it is my story. Oh well. C’est la vie. It won’t deter me from possibly starting volunteer work. I am still researching that avenue. I sort of don’t know where to begin. Cousin Lisa and aunt Tracie both suggested work with the VA and veterans with depression or PTSD, but I would think you’d need a counseling degree or something for that, wouldn’t you? Anyway, I’ll look into it. I’d like to get a car first.

That’s the next thing. I had my first driving session today. Looks like it’ll just be me and my instructor; I do not have a partner, seeing as I’m an adult student. But that’s fine with me – I prefer having the one on one instruction for this. I was so scared when I initially got in the car, I started crying a little. Yeah, I know, I’m pathetic. But it was only for an hour. We drove around the parking lot for a little bit, to get used to turning and maneuvering, and then we took a trip through the town of Marion. That was really cool. I did all right. I didn’t get into a crash, I didn’t run up onto a curb – my instructor said I did really well. I need to remember the following: 1) to stay in my turn lane; 2) to get over as soon as I check my blind spot when I’m changing lanes; and 3) to pull up more to make a 90-degree turn.

I would tell you more about me and Johnny, but that’s still a matter for processing. Let me just say that our relationship is going really well, and I thank the Lord that Johnny came into my life. I can be completely honest with Johnny, and he doesn’t judge me. In fact, he’s very understanding. And that is a relief to me. So, thank you, Lord.

And now, another survey. This one is entitled ’84 Questions.’ Yes, it’s a long one. But I had a good time filling it out.

84 QUESTIONS

1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs.
That would be my phone, and my Pandora stream. That’s my music player/music program. Just an FYI.
1. “Wild Horses” by The Sundays.
2. “Someone to Love” by Kate Earl.
3. “Levon” by Elton John.
4. “Over You” by Miranda Lambert.
5. “When the World Ends” by The Bittersweets.
6. “Pale Shelter” by Tears for Fears.
7. “This is the Last Time” by Keane.
8. “Heart-Shaped Box” by Nirvana.
9. “Evening” by Unfinished Thought.
10. “Lover Come Back to Me” by Billie Holiday.

2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you?
I wouldn’t spend a week – I would have to spend one month in Europe, revisiting where the band went when I was in ninth grade. So that’d be Amsterdam and Maastricht in the Netherlands, Cologne and Aachen in Germany, Brussels and Brugge in Belgium, and Paris, France. I’d want Johnny to come with me, and perhaps my family.

3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen)
Pencil. That way, I can erase. And I prefer blue pens to black pens. Dunno why.

4. Favourite month and why?
Hmm…. October. Yes, I know, why would I choose the month that, at one point, was the worst of my life? I dunno. It’s just because.

5. Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them.
Well….my cousin Lisa starred in a movie called “Ivansxtc,” if you’re at all familiar with that movie. She’s the only real ‘celebrity’ in the family, having worked in Hollywood for a time.

6. Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are.
My souvenir sand and shells from Savannah, my Snoopy and Woodstock figurine, and a variety of pens and pencils.

7. What brand logo is closest to you currently?
Brand logo? I dunno. Scentsy. I have my various Scentsy scents here on my desk, because I have no place else to put them.

8. Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favourites?
Sure. I prefer stuff like Clue, Scrabble, Life, or Monopoly. Or Yahtzee! Love Yahtzee. Or Pit. If you’ve never played Pit before, go educate yourself. That’s a fun game. Fun and loud.

9. A musical artist you love that isn’t well known.
Neko Case.

10. A musical artist you love that is well known.
Queen.

11. What is your desktop background currently?
Gir on his piggy:

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12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them.
My family and I were gossiping about the arrest that happened just now in our neighborhood. Long story. Don’t ask. Suffice to say, Older Sister now has a police scanner app on her phone.

13. First colour name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow.
White.

14. What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in?
My alarm clock. And some defunct watches (I just need new batteries in them).

15. What kind of headphones do you use?
I use earbuds. Yeah, I don’t have proper headphones anymore – they’re all earbuds.

16. What musical artists have you seen perform live?
I haven’t ever been to a concert.

17. Does virginity matter to you?
Yes, because I still am one. I don’t mind if a boyfriend or a potential lover doesn’t have his virginity, but I still am a virgin. So, that’s how it matters to me. It’s not like I’m going to wait until marriage, which is probably TMI, but that’s how it goes.

18. What gaming consoles do you or your family own?
You name it, we’ve probably owned it at one point. I know we have a Wii, a Game Cube, an Xbox of some kind, and various hand held game devices from Solitaire to Nintendo DS to, yes, even still a Game Boy Color. Legend has it we even once had an Atari, although I don’t remember that. So.

19. What pets do you have? What are their names?
I have a cat named Nuala and a parakeet named Little Blue. My Older Sister, who lives with us, has a dog named Jasper and two cats named Camille and Teag.

20. What’s the best job you’ve ever had?
The job I’m currently at, in the records department.

21. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had?
I haven’t had a worst job, but I wasn’t keen on being a sales associate.

22. What magazines do you read, if any?
I don’t read magazines anymore. I used to read them a lot, like Seventeen and People and hairstyling magazines. But I don’t anymore.

23. Inspiration behind your URL?
Um, my blog title, duh. I’m not that interesting or creative.

24. Inspiration behind your blog title?
Okay, it’s nothing sordid or sexual in nature. My tagline says it all – a mouse’s safest domain is the basement. And my nickname is Mouse. And I consider myself a perpetual girl. Hence, the ‘Girl in a Basement.’

25. Favourite item of clothing?
I like comfortable clothing all around, so I don’t have a favorite singular item of clothing.

26. Are you friends with any exes?
That would require having an ex first, so no.

27. Name at least one book you loved as a child.
You’ll get sick of me saying this, but The Language of Goldfish by Zibby O’Neal.

28. What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation (eg. AU English, US English)
My native language is English. US English. And many a discerning Iowan has told me that I have a Wisconsin accent, which I find ridiculous. I have my own style and tone and pattern of speaking. I have no accent, Southern, New York, or otherwise.

29. What email service do you use?
Hotmail, which is now Outlook.

30. Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in?
Yes. I have my picture that says “Never let anyone dull your sparkle;” I have my inspirational words hung on the wall (Faith, Cherish, Live, Dream, Hope, Believe, Joy, and Love); and I have several angels on the walls.

31. What’s your favourite number, and why?
Either 5 or 7. Or even 17. For an obvious reason.

32. Earliest moment in your life you can remember?
Egad. I have so many memories vying for the title of ‘earliest,’ I really can’t pick just one.

33. What did you have for dinner yesterday?
I didn’t. It was a strange day yesterday, and I skipped dinner. I know, that’s not good for me!

34. How often do you brush your teeth?
I try to do it twice a day.

35. What’s your favourite candy/chocolate?
I like Skittles for candy, and milk chocolate for chocolate.

36. Have you had other blogs? Do you have any other blogs currently?
I used to have a blog called Mouse’s Lilypad, but I deleted that blog in 2012. I currently only run this particular blog.

37. If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat?
Something healthy, hopefully. I don’t know what. Depends on my mood.

38. What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of?
I don’t know. What’s a fandom?

39. If you could study anything, what would it be?
Psychology. Again, for obvious reasons.

40. Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick)
Yes, I use lip balm from Beauticontrol. It works wonders.

41. How would you describe your sense of humour?
Wry, dry, cynical, sarcastic to a degree. I grew up with Monty Python, so there’s a warped edge to my humor. What I find funny, others may not necessarily find funny, and vice versa.

42. What things annoy you more than anything else?
Intolerance, people reading over my shoulder, people standing over my shoulder, people that will not shut up for anything. Little things.

43. What kind of position are you in at the moment?
Um, sitting?

44. Do you wear much jewelry?
I like jewelry. Just don’t overdo it.

45. Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders?
(State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc)

In the country, currently, President Barack Obama; in the state, currently, Governor Terry Branstad.

46. Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own.
Zed, Caterina, and Gabby.

47. What do you carry your money in?
A wallet.

48. Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not?
I had my first driving session this morning, and I was a nervous wreck, but I did all right. It’ll be all right, I think. I think I will enjoy the independence of it, but I shall always be on my guard.

49. Longest drive you have ever been on?
From Illinois to Georgia, which was fifteen hours.

50. Furthest away from home you have ever been?
In each direction: north – Door County, Wisconsin; south – Savannah, Georgia; west – Colorado; east – Cologne and Aachen, Germany.

51. How many times have you moved house?
Let me think. I have moved at least eight times in my life.

52. What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture?
My room is a mess. I have to clean it up. There are various books and papers and things on the floor.

53. How many devices do you own which can access the internet?
Two. My computer and my phone. If you ask me about the whole house, I would say everyone’s computer, everyone’s phone (except the land line), and the televisions.

54. Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy?
My boyfriend. My pets. Writing a good story or poem.

55. Is there anything that always makes you sad?
Careful with this question. I have depression, so anything and everything could make me sad.

56. What programs do you currently have open?
My Apache Open Office, in case inspiration strikes, and my internet, to make this blog post. That’s it.

57. What do you associate the colour red with?
It used to be anger, back when I was younger. Nowadays, I’ve been told I look good in red, so it’s a more positive connotation now.

58. Last strong smell you can remember smelling?
Chlorine. Though that may have just been a figment of my imagination; either that, or the country club nearby was getting ready for the spring season waaaay too early.

59. Last healthy thing you ate?
A salad for lunch at work.

60. Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day?
I don’t drink coffee, never could get behind the taste. As for tea, I prefer raspberry tea, although I’ve been turned on to different teas thanks to Johnny.

61. What do you associate the colour blue with?
Sadness, the sky, the ocean.

62. How long is the closest ruler you can find?
12 inches.

63. What colour pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing?
My blue jeans.

64. When was the last time you drank water?
I drink water every day now, so it was for lunch today.

65. How often do you clear your browser history?
I don’t know. Twice a week? I have nothing to hide.

66. Do you believe nude photos can be artistic, rather than erotic?
Yes.

67. Ever written fanfiction for anything?
No. But I have read some. Rather interesting.

68. Last formal event you attended.
The holiday office party. (The Valentine’s Day dance wasn’t formal, even though I dressed up for it.)

69. If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why?
I wouldn’t. I’d keep it right where it is.

70. Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside?
The countryside. I’m weird that way.

71. Roughly how many people live in your town?
Roughly….I don’t know. *trots to Google* Okay, roughly 127,000. Which doesn’t sound right to me, but there it is.

72. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
No, but there are people who do, so.

73. Favourite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores.
I like to shop, period. I like Kohls, and Walmart, and Hot Topic, and Etsy, and Modcloth, and Maurices, and the list goes on and on.

74. Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one?
I have a Samsung Galaxy S5.

75. What is your least favourite colour, and why?
I don’t have a least favorite color, strange but true. They’re all good.

76. How do you spell grey/gray?
Depends. Either way is acceptable, so either way I feel like spelling it, I’ll spell it.

77. Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link)
Um….what?

78. What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow?
I lost count of both, but I don’t think there’s much of a difference.

79. How many posts do you have?
Over 400 now.

80. How many posts have you liked?
At least 100, probably more.

81. Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content?
My own content. Which is incredibly selfish of me, I know.

82. Do you track any tags?
No.

83. What time is it currently?
5:06 pm.

84. Is there anything you should be doing right now?
Either joining the family downstairs watching TV, or cleaning my room. It’s too early for bed.

That was fun! Let’s do another one again someday!

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Planning to shine?

So this question was asked of my department at work.

I found it compelling, so I wrote it out and pinned it up in my cubicle:

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“How do you plan to shine in 2015?”

Well, in terms of work, I will just keep plugging along, toeing the line, and doing my very best to provide excellent service and record retention.

But as for anything else, I have a feeling 2015 will be my year.

There’s no ‘Finally!’ type moment to be had. I just think 2015 will be my year to, well, shine.

Think about it. A lot has changed, and we’re only about three months into the year. Already, I’m taking driving classes, I’m stepping out of my shell at work, I’m stepping out of my shell period what with This Is My Brave, the mental illnesses are under control for the most part, I’m doing well, I have a couple good writing ideas in the pipeline, I even have a boyfriend.

I think 2015 will be a year I reach a sort of potential. Not my full potential – I don’t think I’ll ever know what my full potential really is – but a sort of potential. A sort of height the likes of which I’ve never been before.

I guess we shall see. Don’t dare call it before it’s over, you know?

So, we shall see.

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Here’s another questionnaire I found online that I felt like filling out. It’s short, only 20 questions. But it was fun to do.

1. Do you have any regrets?
~ Two. One is not having a closer relationship with my cousin Gina. The other is not holding someone’s hand when I had the chance. But that’s another story for another time.

2. Do you have a deep, dark secret?
~ Nope. Not at all.

3. Have you ever hurt someone?
~ Certainly not on purpose, let me tell you.

4. Have you ever self-harmed?
~ Yes. But let’s not go there right this second. It’s enough I’ve admitted it.

5. How would you like to be remembered?
~ As someone who tried her very best.

6. Who are the three most important people in your life?
~ Aside from my five immediate family members, that would be Johnny, Gina, and Melissa.

7. Was there one event that changed your life and the way you think?
~ Yes. One January morning, when I was seventeen. That changed everything.

8. Would you sacrifice everything for love?
~ Yes.

9. Are you afraid of dying?
~ No, not really. It will happen one day. I guess it’s not knowing how I will die that scares me.

10. Have you ever been abused?
~ No, at least not physically. When I was bullied, it was more psychological and emotional and verbal abuse, so I guess that would count.

11. Have you ever been in love?
~ No, but perhaps I’m getting there.

12. Are you happy with who you are?
~ Yes. And it took years for me to be able to say that.

13. Would you ever give up your life to save someone else’s?
~ You bet.

14. Have you changed at all in the last year?
~ Very much so. I’ll be driving before long, I have a full-time job, I have a supportive family, I have friends, and I have a boyfriend. All in all, very much changed.

15. Would you ever settle for someone you didn’t feel was “the one”?
~ I don’t know. Who’s to say who is ‘the one’ or not?

16. Is there someone you can tell everything to without fear of judgment?
~ Yes.

17. Are you pursuing your dreams?
~ Not as ardently as I should be, I guess. I’d love to write a novel – that’s not really panning out. I’d like to write, period.

18. Do actions speak louder than words?
~ Many times, yes.

19. Is there something you would never do?
~ I’d probably never bungee jump or skydive or skinny dip.

20. What makes you uncomfortable?
~ Difficult to say. It really does vary. But that’s par for the course, I guess. The smallest, most insignificant thing could make me uncomfortable or depressed or anxious, the way Susanna Kaysen felt like crying watching the goat dance, or like the words in the poem made Carrie Stokes uncomfortable. (Go read those books already, if you don’t know what I’m talking about.)

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In closing today, the bank where my mom and Youngest Brother work was selling candy sundaes again. This time, we each got one – Mom got a Hershey’s one, Younger Brother was sent a Snickers one, Older Sister chose Mounds, and Youngest Brother got….well, I can’t remember what he got. I got York Peppermint Patties, as you can see:

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These’ll last me a year. No, seriously. I’m not one for a lot of Yorks, so these will last me quite a while.

And Nuala was disinclined to play with the ribbons this time, so I have no picture for you. Darn it.

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