And I’m shouting because I’m excited!

I DID make This Is My Brave!

Not long after I made the previous post, I got an email saying I had made the final cut, and I am officially a part of the cast!


The show is in May, and I will have someone there to video tape it. There will be a couple rehearsals between now and then; times will be decided.

Oh my gosh! I can share my story!

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Tidbits, and another survey

Hi, all! How have things been going with you?

So. First things first. I did not make the cut for the local production of This Is My Brave. I’m sorta bummed about that, actually. I guess mine was not a compelling enough story, perhaps. But it is my story. Oh well. C’est la vie. It won’t deter me from possibly starting volunteer work. I am still researching that avenue. I sort of don’t know where to begin. Cousin Lisa and aunt Tracie both suggested work with the VA and veterans with depression or PTSD, but I would think you’d need a counseling degree or something for that, wouldn’t you? Anyway, I’ll look into it. I’d like to get a car first.

That’s the next thing. I had my first driving session today. Looks like it’ll just be me and my instructor; I do not have a partner, seeing as I’m an adult student. But that’s fine with me – I prefer having the one on one instruction for this. I was so scared when I initially got in the car, I started crying a little. Yeah, I know, I’m pathetic. But it was only for an hour. We drove around the parking lot for a little bit, to get used to turning and maneuvering, and then we took a trip through the town of Marion. That was really cool. I did all right. I didn’t get into a crash, I didn’t run up onto a curb – my instructor said I did really well. I need to remember the following: 1) to stay in my turn lane; 2) to get over as soon as I check my blind spot when I’m changing lanes; and 3) to pull up more to make a 90-degree turn.

I would tell you more about me and Johnny, but that’s still a matter for processing. Let me just say that our relationship is going really well, and I thank the Lord that Johnny came into my life. I can be completely honest with Johnny, and he doesn’t judge me. In fact, he’s very understanding. And that is a relief to me. So, thank you, Lord.

And now, another survey. This one is entitled ’84 Questions.’ Yes, it’s a long one. But I had a good time filling it out.


1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs.
That would be my phone, and my Pandora stream. That’s my music player/music program. Just an FYI.
1. “Wild Horses” by The Sundays.
2. “Someone to Love” by Kate Earl.
3. “Levon” by Elton John.
4. “Over You” by Miranda Lambert.
5. “When the World Ends” by The Bittersweets.
6. “Pale Shelter” by Tears for Fears.
7. “This is the Last Time” by Keane.
8. “Heart-Shaped Box” by Nirvana.
9. “Evening” by Unfinished Thought.
10. “Lover Come Back to Me” by Billie Holiday.

2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you?
I wouldn’t spend a week – I would have to spend one month in Europe, revisiting where the band went when I was in ninth grade. So that’d be Amsterdam and Maastricht in the Netherlands, Cologne and Aachen in Germany, Brussels and Brugge in Belgium, and Paris, France. I’d want Johnny to come with me, and perhaps my family.

3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen)
Pencil. That way, I can erase. And I prefer blue pens to black pens. Dunno why.

4. Favourite month and why?
Hmm…. October. Yes, I know, why would I choose the month that, at one point, was the worst of my life? I dunno. It’s just because.

5. Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them.
Well….my cousin Lisa starred in a movie called “Ivansxtc,” if you’re at all familiar with that movie. She’s the only real ‘celebrity’ in the family, having worked in Hollywood for a time.

6. Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are.
My souvenir sand and shells from Savannah, my Snoopy and Woodstock figurine, and a variety of pens and pencils.

7. What brand logo is closest to you currently?
Brand logo? I dunno. Scentsy. I have my various Scentsy scents here on my desk, because I have no place else to put them.

8. Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favourites?
Sure. I prefer stuff like Clue, Scrabble, Life, or Monopoly. Or Yahtzee! Love Yahtzee. Or Pit. If you’ve never played Pit before, go educate yourself. That’s a fun game. Fun and loud.

9. A musical artist you love that isn’t well known.
Neko Case.

10. A musical artist you love that is well known.

11. What is your desktop background currently?
Gir on his piggy:


12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them.
My family and I were gossiping about the arrest that happened just now in our neighborhood. Long story. Don’t ask. Suffice to say, Older Sister now has a police scanner app on her phone.

13. First colour name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow.

14. What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in?
My alarm clock. And some defunct watches (I just need new batteries in them).

15. What kind of headphones do you use?
I use earbuds. Yeah, I don’t have proper headphones anymore – they’re all earbuds.

16. What musical artists have you seen perform live?
I haven’t ever been to a concert.

17. Does virginity matter to you?
Yes, because I still am one. I don’t mind if a boyfriend or a potential lover doesn’t have his virginity, but I still am a virgin. So, that’s how it matters to me. It’s not like I’m going to wait until marriage, which is probably TMI, but that’s how it goes.

18. What gaming consoles do you or your family own?
You name it, we’ve probably owned it at one point. I know we have a Wii, a Game Cube, an Xbox of some kind, and various hand held game devices from Solitaire to Nintendo DS to, yes, even still a Game Boy Color. Legend has it we even once had an Atari, although I don’t remember that. So.

19. What pets do you have? What are their names?
I have a cat named Nuala and a parakeet named Little Blue. My Older Sister, who lives with us, has a dog named Jasper and two cats named Camille and Teag.

20. What’s the best job you’ve ever had?
The job I’m currently at, in the records department.

21. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had?
I haven’t had a worst job, but I wasn’t keen on being a sales associate.

22. What magazines do you read, if any?
I don’t read magazines anymore. I used to read them a lot, like Seventeen and People and hairstyling magazines. But I don’t anymore.

23. Inspiration behind your URL?
Um, my blog title, duh. I’m not that interesting or creative.

24. Inspiration behind your blog title?
Okay, it’s nothing sordid or sexual in nature. My tagline says it all – a mouse’s safest domain is the basement. And my nickname is Mouse. And I consider myself a perpetual girl. Hence, the ‘Girl in a Basement.’

25. Favourite item of clothing?
I like comfortable clothing all around, so I don’t have a favorite singular item of clothing.

26. Are you friends with any exes?
That would require having an ex first, so no.

27. Name at least one book you loved as a child.
You’ll get sick of me saying this, but The Language of Goldfish by Zibby O’Neal.

28. What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation (eg. AU English, US English)
My native language is English. US English. And many a discerning Iowan has told me that I have a Wisconsin accent, which I find ridiculous. I have my own style and tone and pattern of speaking. I have no accent, Southern, New York, or otherwise.

29. What email service do you use?
Hotmail, which is now Outlook.

30. Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in?
Yes. I have my picture that says “Never let anyone dull your sparkle;” I have my inspirational words hung on the wall (Faith, Cherish, Live, Dream, Hope, Believe, Joy, and Love); and I have several angels on the walls.

31. What’s your favourite number, and why?
Either 5 or 7. Or even 17. For an obvious reason.

32. Earliest moment in your life you can remember?
Egad. I have so many memories vying for the title of ‘earliest,’ I really can’t pick just one.

33. What did you have for dinner yesterday?
I didn’t. It was a strange day yesterday, and I skipped dinner. I know, that’s not good for me!

34. How often do you brush your teeth?
I try to do it twice a day.

35. What’s your favourite candy/chocolate?
I like Skittles for candy, and milk chocolate for chocolate.

36. Have you had other blogs? Do you have any other blogs currently?
I used to have a blog called Mouse’s Lilypad, but I deleted that blog in 2012. I currently only run this particular blog.

37. If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat?
Something healthy, hopefully. I don’t know what. Depends on my mood.

38. What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of?
I don’t know. What’s a fandom?

39. If you could study anything, what would it be?
Psychology. Again, for obvious reasons.

40. Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick)
Yes, I use lip balm from Beauticontrol. It works wonders.

41. How would you describe your sense of humour?
Wry, dry, cynical, sarcastic to a degree. I grew up with Monty Python, so there’s a warped edge to my humor. What I find funny, others may not necessarily find funny, and vice versa.

42. What things annoy you more than anything else?
Intolerance, people reading over my shoulder, people standing over my shoulder, people that will not shut up for anything. Little things.

43. What kind of position are you in at the moment?
Um, sitting?

44. Do you wear much jewelry?
I like jewelry. Just don’t overdo it.

45. Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders?
(State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc)

In the country, currently, President Barack Obama; in the state, currently, Governor Terry Branstad.

46. Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own.
Zed, Caterina, and Gabby.

47. What do you carry your money in?
A wallet.

48. Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not?
I had my first driving session this morning, and I was a nervous wreck, but I did all right. It’ll be all right, I think. I think I will enjoy the independence of it, but I shall always be on my guard.

49. Longest drive you have ever been on?
From Illinois to Georgia, which was fifteen hours.

50. Furthest away from home you have ever been?
In each direction: north – Door County, Wisconsin; south – Savannah, Georgia; west – Colorado; east – Cologne and Aachen, Germany.

51. How many times have you moved house?
Let me think. I have moved at least eight times in my life.

52. What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture?
My room is a mess. I have to clean it up. There are various books and papers and things on the floor.

53. How many devices do you own which can access the internet?
Two. My computer and my phone. If you ask me about the whole house, I would say everyone’s computer, everyone’s phone (except the land line), and the televisions.

54. Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy?
My boyfriend. My pets. Writing a good story or poem.

55. Is there anything that always makes you sad?
Careful with this question. I have depression, so anything and everything could make me sad.

56. What programs do you currently have open?
My Apache Open Office, in case inspiration strikes, and my internet, to make this blog post. That’s it.

57. What do you associate the colour red with?
It used to be anger, back when I was younger. Nowadays, I’ve been told I look good in red, so it’s a more positive connotation now.

58. Last strong smell you can remember smelling?
Chlorine. Though that may have just been a figment of my imagination; either that, or the country club nearby was getting ready for the spring season waaaay too early.

59. Last healthy thing you ate?
A salad for lunch at work.

60. Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day?
I don’t drink coffee, never could get behind the taste. As for tea, I prefer raspberry tea, although I’ve been turned on to different teas thanks to Johnny.

61. What do you associate the colour blue with?
Sadness, the sky, the ocean.

62. How long is the closest ruler you can find?
12 inches.

63. What colour pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing?
My blue jeans.

64. When was the last time you drank water?
I drink water every day now, so it was for lunch today.

65. How often do you clear your browser history?
I don’t know. Twice a week? I have nothing to hide.

66. Do you believe nude photos can be artistic, rather than erotic?

67. Ever written fanfiction for anything?
No. But I have read some. Rather interesting.

68. Last formal event you attended.
The holiday office party. (The Valentine’s Day dance wasn’t formal, even though I dressed up for it.)

69. If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why?
I wouldn’t. I’d keep it right where it is.

70. Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside?
The countryside. I’m weird that way.

71. Roughly how many people live in your town?
Roughly….I don’t know. *trots to Google* Okay, roughly 127,000. Which doesn’t sound right to me, but there it is.

72. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
No, but there are people who do, so.

73. Favourite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores.
I like to shop, period. I like Kohls, and Walmart, and Hot Topic, and Etsy, and Modcloth, and Maurices, and the list goes on and on.

74. Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one?
I have a Samsung Galaxy S5.

75. What is your least favourite colour, and why?
I don’t have a least favorite color, strange but true. They’re all good.

76. How do you spell grey/gray?
Depends. Either way is acceptable, so either way I feel like spelling it, I’ll spell it.

77. Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link)

78. What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow?
I lost count of both, but I don’t think there’s much of a difference.

79. How many posts do you have?
Over 400 now.

80. How many posts have you liked?
At least 100, probably more.

81. Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content?
My own content. Which is incredibly selfish of me, I know.

82. Do you track any tags?

83. What time is it currently?
5:06 pm.

84. Is there anything you should be doing right now?
Either joining the family downstairs watching TV, or cleaning my room. It’s too early for bed.

That was fun! Let’s do another one again someday!

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Planning to shine?

So this question was asked of my department at work.

I found it compelling, so I wrote it out and pinned it up in my cubicle:


“How do you plan to shine in 2015?”

Well, in terms of work, I will just keep plugging along, toeing the line, and doing my very best to provide excellent service and record retention.

But as for anything else, I have a feeling 2015 will be my year.

There’s no ‘Finally!’ type moment to be had. I just think 2015 will be my year to, well, shine.

Think about it. A lot has changed, and we’re only about three months into the year. Already, I’m taking driving classes, I’m stepping out of my shell at work, I’m stepping out of my shell period what with This Is My Brave, the mental illnesses are under control for the most part, I’m doing well, I have a couple good writing ideas in the pipeline, I even have a boyfriend.

I think 2015 will be a year I reach a sort of potential. Not my full potential – I don’t think I’ll ever know what my full potential really is – but a sort of potential. A sort of height the likes of which I’ve never been before.

I guess we shall see. Don’t dare call it before it’s over, you know?

So, we shall see.


Here’s another questionnaire I found online that I felt like filling out. It’s short, only 20 questions. But it was fun to do.

1. Do you have any regrets?
~ Two. One is not having a closer relationship with my cousin Gina. The other is not holding someone’s hand when I had the chance. But that’s another story for another time.

2. Do you have a deep, dark secret?
~ Nope. Not at all.

3. Have you ever hurt someone?
~ Certainly not on purpose, let me tell you.

4. Have you ever self-harmed?
~ Yes. But let’s not go there right this second. It’s enough I’ve admitted it.

5. How would you like to be remembered?
~ As someone who tried her very best.

6. Who are the three most important people in your life?
~ Aside from my five immediate family members, that would be Johnny, Gina, and Melissa.

7. Was there one event that changed your life and the way you think?
~ Yes. One January morning, when I was seventeen. That changed everything.

8. Would you sacrifice everything for love?
~ Yes.

9. Are you afraid of dying?
~ No, not really. It will happen one day. I guess it’s not knowing how I will die that scares me.

10. Have you ever been abused?
~ No, at least not physically. When I was bullied, it was more psychological and emotional and verbal abuse, so I guess that would count.

11. Have you ever been in love?
~ No, but perhaps I’m getting there.

12. Are you happy with who you are?
~ Yes. And it took years for me to be able to say that.

13. Would you ever give up your life to save someone else’s?
~ You bet.

14. Have you changed at all in the last year?
~ Very much so. I’ll be driving before long, I have a full-time job, I have a supportive family, I have friends, and I have a boyfriend. All in all, very much changed.

15. Would you ever settle for someone you didn’t feel was “the one”?
~ I don’t know. Who’s to say who is ‘the one’ or not?

16. Is there someone you can tell everything to without fear of judgment?
~ Yes.

17. Are you pursuing your dreams?
~ Not as ardently as I should be, I guess. I’d love to write a novel – that’s not really panning out. I’d like to write, period.

18. Do actions speak louder than words?
~ Many times, yes.

19. Is there something you would never do?
~ I’d probably never bungee jump or skydive or skinny dip.

20. What makes you uncomfortable?
~ Difficult to say. It really does vary. But that’s par for the course, I guess. The smallest, most insignificant thing could make me uncomfortable or depressed or anxious, the way Susanna Kaysen felt like crying watching the goat dance, or like the words in the poem made Carrie Stokes uncomfortable. (Go read those books already, if you don’t know what I’m talking about.)


In closing today, the bank where my mom and Youngest Brother work was selling candy sundaes again. This time, we each got one – Mom got a Hershey’s one, Younger Brother was sent a Snickers one, Older Sister chose Mounds, and Youngest Brother got….well, I can’t remember what he got. I got York Peppermint Patties, as you can see:


These’ll last me a year. No, seriously. I’m not one for a lot of Yorks, so these will last me quite a while.

And Nuala was disinclined to play with the ribbons this time, so I have no picture for you. Darn it.

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So yesterday was my audition for This Is My Brave.

Boy, was I nervous.

It’s sort of hard to share my story, because of the stigma involved. (Although my rallying cry within is “Down with the stigma!”)

So I was nervous.

But my mom drove me there, and we found the place all right, and I found Meeting Room A just fine. The audience was only two people, the two producers of the Iowa City show, one of which I’d been emailing back and forth. Both of them were very personable and approachable.

But seeing as how past auditions for shows in high school and college turned into complete disasters, I wasn’t really very confident in my abilities to successfully succeed. (Yes, I’ve auditioned for parts in school musicals before; my downfall was I couldn’t dance, so.) So I fell victim to my nerves, and I rushed through my piece, with my nervous high helium Minnie Mouse voice and fidgety appearance because I was trying not to shake where I stood.

But I apparently nailed it.

Brook and Julie applauded me. They loved it! They said it was really good, very strong, very true. They said I was a good writer, and how could I have written that while feeling as down as I did. (Actually, I’ve written some of my best pieces while feeling incredibly down, so it wasn’t that difficult.) The only complaint they had was that I rushed through it, and they had me read the first four paragraphs again, taking it slower to see about getting better pacing. And it was better.

They then asked me to provide a phone number and mailing address, and asked me a couple questions, and then I was on my way.

Nailed it! Mom and I stopped at McDonald’s for celebratory fries and drinks afterwards.

I’ll find out on Wednesday if I made the cut or not. I’m really hoping I make it, because it would be the first step, for me, in sharing my story.

I would like to have my family and Johnny come to the show, if I make the show, and perhaps video tape it for me. For posterity, I guess. This is provided I get in, mind. It would be cool.

*SIGH* A girl can dream. I’ll keep you posted.

Tomorrow is my first appointment with my new Dr. S. Yes, my new therapist’s last name begins with an ‘S’ as well. Although I might rename him in my Cast of Characters. Dr S Version 2, perhaps. We’ll see how it goes.

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Go time

My audition for This Is My Brave is today.

Wish me luck.  :)

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‘Invade My Privacy’ questionnaire


Found this via who knows where, and thought it would be fun.

But I’m boring, and I don’t have a lot of answers for this at the moment.

Well, I’ll do it anyway.

1. What song (if any) are you listening to?
~ Anna Nalick’s “Consider This.” Now it’s just switched to “The House of the Rising Sun” by the Animals. And I think that’s where I’ll leave off in terms of music for the night. Long story.

2. How many followers do you have?
~ 507. And that is such an honor to me.

3. How many are you following?
~ Gosh, I don’t really know. I have several blogs that I’m following, and just look at my sidebars and all the websites I recommend you visit. I lost count.

4. What are you wearing?
~ Pajamas, because it’s cold here in my room. And my cool pencil socks. They’re toasty!

5. What are the three recent websites in your history?
~ Well, WordPress.com, obviously. Then Beautinet.com. And Facebook.

6. What is your most recent download?
~ I downloaded the movie “Frozen” onto my phone.

7. What does your last incoming text message say?
~ “Ooo, Chinese sounds good.” Older Sister and I were discussing what to do for dinner. We went with pizza instead. Go figure.

8. Last outgoing?
~ Text message? “We can talk more when I get home.” Again with the dinner discussion.

9. What was the last thing you had in your mouth?
~ Um. My toothbrush. Duh! Gotta fight plaque, you know?

10. What is the first URL to pop up in your search box when you type the letter A (or any letter)?
~ Ooo, interesting. Well, my blog pops up when I typed in “A,” and this bookmarked page popped up with the letter B (because I’d like to get them someday). I’ll spare you the whole alphabet, but most of it popped up with just the standard Google search, with occasional forays back to WordPress.

11. What do you smell right now?
~ Nail polish. Yup. Older Sister is doing her nails in the next room, while watching one of the “Hunger Games” movies. And I’m just sitting here, typing. Go figure.

12. How many different tabs/windows do you have open at this very moment?
~ I have three tabs open – one is Google, one is my Stats page, and one is this page on which I’m typing this post.

13. Paste the contents of your clipboard right now!
~ I don’t have anything saved to my clipboard. Sorry.

14. What’s the file name of the most recently deleted item in your recycle box?
~ I did a bulk delete of old pictures. I can’t remember every name of them. IMG_0785. That was one.

15. [Any other invasive question]?
~ Anybody?


Okay, good night.

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Friday Fun with Brent Spiner

Here’s the weekly shameless plug:

Become one of the chosen. Join the mercurial stranger, DJ Mozo, in The Seventh House tonight, 8 to 10:30 pm EST, on Tenacity Radio. Not mainstream. Not progressive. Just music, and good music at that. Great music. All brought to you by a DJ who is only visiting this planet…. This is radio, as it should be. If you choose to join in the chat, just look for me, Mouse.

Thank you. That’s all for now.

Now, on to the Funny.

Okay, here you go. The weirdest things get inside my head. Or go through my head.

Take today’s Funny, for instance. Which I was going to wait until the Tune for Tuesday to post, but this is just too Fun not to share as the Funny.

I don’t know why, but yesterday, I started thinking about this. For no good reason.

I was a little tyke when “Star Trek: The Next Generation” first premiered (which will age me, actually, quite a bit). We watched it initially for LeVar Burton, because of “Reading Rainbow,” and he was great as Geordi. But I quickly became enthralled by Data the android, played by Brent Spiner. So it’s totally a kidling crush thing.

(And remember, my idea of a crush isn’t the same as most people’s idea. Just sayin’.)

I watched “Geppetto” when it came on TV all those years ago, because of Mr. Spiner. And, quite frankly, and I mean no disrespect to anyone else involved, this musical number was the only reason to watch the darn movie. Wow. Just, wow. I wonder how much practice it took for him to get this just right. But, being a veteran actor, it probably wasn’t that hard for him.

This particular video, provided by a Youtube user named Drew Carey Acting Tips, is actually….the tone is not correct. It’s sped up a bit. Still, you’ll get the idea.

Here is Brent Spiner as Stromboli the puppeteer, singing “Bravo Stromboli” from “Geppetto.”

Enjoy! And Happy Friday!

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